CHRISTINA TANG.
Thursday, July 3, 2008!
I’VE BETTER THINGS TO DO ON; 10:17 PM
Behind that(my) smile, lies a broken heart :(
I think i am okay after a while.
But somehow not,
just somehow.
Thank goodness i've frens in sch.
When i am ALONE alone alone alone
my mind wanders to..
yes, you know where.
I wana knw hws she doing right now
Is she fine?
Does her legs still hurt as much as before?
trillions and zillions of ?????(QST MARKS)
I feel that you're near me,
you're looking after me.
I could hear your breath.
There's one regret in my life.
That is, not able to see you for the last time.
not able to give you a get well card i made few weeks ago
not able to give you a kiss and
whisper into your ears," I love you granny." before you go.
you know i do love you.
i really do.
but i've never told you i really do.
And now that you're gone, i am actually saying that.
WHAT THE F!
i am so "proud" of myself.
last mother's day.
I bought my granny and great grandmother each a bouquet of flowers.
My great grandmother actually wanted to give me 5o bucks for buying that.
OBVIOUSLY, i rejected.
I could tell she was really really elated.IT WAS WRITTEN ALL OVER HER LOVELY FACE
I WAS THE FIRST TO GIVE HER FLOWERRRRSS!
That was the first and last time.
If i'd not remebered wrongly, the last time i saw you was a month ago at my grandmother's place.
"bye great grand granny, i am heading home!"
I nvr knew that was THE LAST BYE.
it not the HI, BYE anymore.
ITS THAT SHE HAD GONE TO A FAR FAR FAR FAR AWAY PLACE AND WLD NVR COME BACK TO HEAR ME SAY HI AND BYE TO HER AGAIN! ITS THE BYE THAT REALLY MEAN IT. B-Y-E.
i cant be alone. i'm fine when i am NOT ALONE.
